The last few days I’ve been thinking a lot about love, but
I’ve also been thinking a lot about evil. I’ve been thinking about good vs.
evil and what happens when evil wins. The one thing I never thought about before? That evil only wins when you let it...Some hearts are harder than others, but
in the end, I think that all we can do is show love for them. Be good, be kind,
and show love. I believe that when good people do nothing, evil has the chance
to win. I also, and more importantly, know that with God, evil NEVER wins. It’s
impossible. It can’t. God’s power is and always will be stronger than evil. I’m
grateful for the people in my life that have saved me from evil because they
didn’t choose to just sit there and do nothing. Those people, are my family.
They’ve helped me realize that no matter what choices you’ve made in the past, there
comes a time in your life that you just need to stop, and do the right thing. “Choose
the harder right, not the easier wrong” is what my parents have reminded us many
times over the years.
Relationships have also been on my mind a lot lately about
how amazing it is that all of us children were able to be a part of this family
through adoption. God knows what He’s doing. He knows where to place each
spirit so that we can have these wonderful relationships that we are able to
build here on Earth. I strongly believe that it isn’t just “luck”. I’ve learned
with adoption that the love and relationships of a family comes through all the
experiences, not genetics.
I am so grateful that I have my parents around, especially
for when my son arrives. I don’t want my son to be like me, as much as I want him to be like my parents. I know that my son will have the best grandparents
out there on this Earth for him specifically, and I’m so grateful for that.
Heavenly Father knew what He was doing when He sent this spirit to this
specific family.
My dad was just talking the other day about something that I
have found to be very true and hope others will think of often after they read
this when they’re having trouble with their children; I know I will. He said
that he and my mom are the best parents for the children in our family. I know
that my parents have been blessed with traits that will help them to deal with the
struggles that us children go through, and they have been blessed to learn from the struggles that we’ve gone
through as well. So when I say that my parents are the best grandparents in the
world, don’t take it the wrong way thinking you’re not a good parent or
grandparent. They are the best grandparents there is out there, for my son. I’m sure you are the best
parent for your child. You may not be able to handle other people’s children,
and they may not be able to handle yours. That’s the beauty of it all. When we
follow God’s plan, it all seems to work out. He helps us fit the pieces of the
puzzle together when we follow Him. Things will be ok with His help. But even
when it doesn’t seem that way, even with the many parents out there going
through their heads feeling like they’ve made a mistake when it comes to
parenting and that they aren’t a “good” parent and that maybe somebody else
should have been this child’s parent, just remember that God sent these
children to you for a reason whether it was for your own learning or for your
child’s; He sent that child to you for a reason. And remember, God never makes mistakes.
I write these blogs so that one day my children and my
grandchildren, my great grandchildren and so on, will be able to read them and
see not only the struggles that I’ve gone through, but more importantly, that
there’s a way out. There is a way out
of evil. It is God. He will protect you and bless you when you follow Him. I
hope I can be a good mother to my son and teach him that God is always there,
you just need to ask for His help. And don’t be afraid to ask for His help,
little one. He’s your Father and He loves you dearly; more than I even do, and
that’s a lot. He loves you, son. I love you.
As in my home, one thing I will make sure that you grow up
hearing every single day, is those words. Like in my home, I will make sure
that no matter how frustrated and disappointed I may get, you will always hear
those words. I love you. A very genuine and sincere
“I Love You”.
I’m grateful for all of these amazing people in my life that
have helped me and have been so very generous in helping to collect baby things
for my little one. I thought that there was no way in the world I would be able
to get even half of the things that I have received from ward members, friends,
and family. It was hard to listen and understand His words, “Keep going Olivia. Things will be
ok. I promise.” because I completely
lost hope. I heard the words, but I wasn't listening to the words. It took time to put this struggle of what
seemed impossible, into the hands of God. But God’s hands make the impossible,
possible. I thought it would take a miracle. But with God,
miracles happen. All of you are the answers to my prayers; you are a part of God’s miracles. Your continued help has
overwhelmed me with joy and has brought me to tears time and time again. Thank
you all for your help and support.
I love You, Father. Thank you for all of these amazing
people in my life. I truly am blessed.